February 2012
1 post
Holy shit, I need to get the fuck over this.
“I’m never going to be the same again. Bury me, I’m not your friend.”
January 2012
1 post
I'm a fucking wreck right now
I don’t know what to think at all. I know what I want, how I feel, but what you’re thinking is a completely different story. I’m sick from feeling this way. I don’t want to wait until Friday to figure this all out. I don’t want to deal with not having you, if that’s what you choose. I want you to be happy, though. So I’m going to have to deal with it. You...
October 2011
1 post
I remember the day that you told me
you would save me every time. I don’t know what made this pop into my head but it did. Just how you said that with so much care in your voice made me feel so safe. It was as though you honestly could not stand the thought of losing me in any way and that’s so fucking amazing to hear. You really do take care of me and I love that. Especially whenever we go through some rough times...
September 2011
0 posts
I hate when you make fun of me.
Especially when I’m crying.
August 2011
2 posts
I'm so close
to just fucking leaving.
July 2011
2 posts
Constantly
feel like no one cares about me. My self esteem is always shit. I don’t see why people can’t just put in the effort for a little bit? Am I really that terrible?
I have no clue what to do anymore.
I love you to fucking death but this is fucking eating at me. I don’t know what I did today that made you get angry with me. I tried my fucking hardest to cheer you up last night by joking around with you, being cute and making you a little picture, writing little posts to you and telling you I love you…but you said I did absolutely nothing to even TRY to cheer you up. How do you not...
June 2011
4 posts
I can't stand this at all.
Nothing feels worse than this. I hate it sosososo much. We’ve been arguing a lot lately and I’m beginning to seriously feel like you’re losing feelings for me. Whether that be big or small. I feel like I’m constantly annoying you because you’ve been on edge with me so much. You haven’t really been in a playful mood much. You don’t really laugh with me or...
I'm afraid
that this is making my lose feelings for you. I don’t really know what to say about all of it but you don’t take any of my feelings seriously anyway. I really can’t stand this and hopefully I can find a way to hide being upset so this stops happening.
Why
do I let shit like this bother me……UGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH
Cool, getting really fucking annoyed right now.
I’ve told you I feel like we haven’t been talking much at all lately and tonight takes the cake. Its cool that you’ve barely talked to me AT ALL since I left your house at 6:45. Its been almost 7 hours and I’ve gotten about 20 or so messages from you that mainly say stuff like “ok” and “yeah” not to mention I can’t stand when you only send like...
May 2011
2 posts
I can't stand the thought
of not making you happy. I want you to only have to look at me for a split second and instantly smile. I’m one hundred percent in love with you and it kills me to see you upset. I hate when you have bad days. It honestly makes me wish I could just set the whole world aside for you and give you whatever you want just to turn everything around and make it better. I don’t want to ever see...
Personal---Seriously don't read this unless you're...
I absolutely love when Bret eats me out. Holy, shit. Its so good.
April 2011
6 posts
Lately
I’ve been thinking about Heather more than usual. I hate the days where I don’t know how I’m going to make it to the next day knowing she’s dead. When I walked out Bret’s door last night, I smelled her for a split second. But it wasn’t what she smelled like when she was living. It was the awful smell that didn’t leave my nose for weeks after she passed...
Seriously?
You get upset over the smalllllllest things sometimes. Its not even worth getting upset about.
Work called me and its my day off.
Fuck that. I’m not answering.
My so called 'best friends'
Have yet to apologize for ditching me. It’s been a fucking week and they haven’t tried to do shit about it. I’m fucking sick of getting walked all over and taken for granted. It’s cool. Just ditch me, don’t include me in anything, but act all buddy buddy with me or only ask if I’m still mad. It’s all good. I don’t have feelings or anything. Ha.
I'm really upset over that.
I shouldn’t think about it. It makes me sick to my stomach. I don’t know why I’m posting about it because if you see this you’ll definitely ask and a huge part of me doesn’t want to explain.
This sucks.
I need to get so much off my mind.
To start off with, I was thinking about the past today. I honestly tried to figure out how I stayed with Matt but I couldn’t quite put my finger on the EXACT reason. I did realize however, that I never REALLY loved him. I mean, yeah I cared about him. I cared about him as a person..a friend. But nothing more. I convinced myself for so fucking long that he was worth it all. That he was a good...