Nothing feels worse than this. I hate it sosososo much. We’ve been arguing a lot lately and I’m beginning to seriously feel like you’re losing feelings for me. Whether that be big or small. I feel like I’m constantly annoying you because you’ve been on edge with me so much. You haven’t really been in a playful mood much. You don’t really laugh with me or smile and have a good time like we used to. I don’t know this just really fucking sucks and I hate thinking about it. I tried calling and joking around and that didn’t go very well. You just get so annoyed or frustrated with me now and I don’t even know what to do ):. I feel like I fucked everything up and I wish I could just fix it. I’ve grown so attached to you and I hate that because I read into every little thing because I can’t stand that you’re upset with me or even thinking about you being upset with me. I hope this turns around soon. I can’t even think about what would happen if we drifted apart, or rather if you drifted from me. But that’s the way it seems to be heading and all I want to do is get you to come back. This whole thing is some big, dumb, run-on paragraph about how paranoid I am to lose you and I hope it won’t upset you when you read it..if you read it. I just needed to get this out and I don’t want to stress you out with it. Fuck, this sucks so much.

:/