I love you to fucking death but this is fucking eating at me. I don’t know what I did today that made you get angry with me. I tried my fucking hardest to cheer you up last night by joking around with you, being cute and making you a little picture, writing little posts to you and telling you I love you…but you said I did absolutely nothing to even TRY to cheer you up. How do you not see what I did? I’m starting to hate myself because of you. I seriously put all my effort into putting you into a better mood and you wouldn’t even talk me. I’ve even asked you multiple times to tell me what to do to make you feel better and you never know. You always tell me my expectations are up too high but look at yourself. Look at what this is causing us. I tried to talk to you two nights ago about how to fix things, and you didn’t even seem like you wanted to talk. Whenever this is supposed to help us. I don’t know why I let it get to me so much if it keeps happening…I just think I care too much. I’m tired of hurting because of this. And I don’t know what to do. I want to stay together. I really, really do. I don’t see why this has to be so hard. I guess I’ll just continue to be put down like this day after day and I’ll eventually be okay with it. I just hate hurting so much and I wish you would stop saying these things. All you’re going to do is get upset from me posting this but I have to say it somehow. I’m not trying to talk shit about you I’m just trying to get out how I feel without being put down for that too. I’m sick of having feelings. I think I’d be better off to go back how I used to be and close myself off.